Sweetly Broken, Wholly Surrendered

Does anyone else feel like we abuse ourselves? Why do we focus so much on what other people do to us when we do so much to bring ourselves down?! It's ridiculous and we ALL do it about silly stuff.

We give ourselves bruises. We give ourselves constant reminders of how we have screwed up, don't we?

Funny but not so funny story: at Lifegroup I had a bruise on my leg and somebody asked me what happened. Well of course I didn't know, so I sarcastically said that when I get mad at myself I punch myself in the leg. While that was silly and so NOT true it's such an accurate representation of what we do in our heads.

I woke the other morning feeling really down about myself because my roommate are trying to lose some weight together and we had given in to a little late night snack. But of course I didn't feel bad about it until the next morning. And all day I was in a foul mood  because I kept reminding myself of my failure instead of focusing on the day and making it better than the day before.

One of my favorite Relient K songs says "yesterday was not quite what it could have been, as were most of all the days before.." How true. We always beat ourselves up about how badly we do throughout the day and choose not to look at what we succeeded at. If the worst you've done all day is had a piece of cake I think you're going to be ok! The next day I started saying a prayer on the way to class for God to give me the strength I need to say no to temptation and to treat my my body like the temple that I know it is. And guess what? It worked!

But back on topic. Instead of beating ourselves up about what we mess up on why don't we just surrender it all to God? We KNOW He will take care of us, don't we? But we all want to prove that we can be in control. But man, that gets so exhausting! Sometimes it's nice to let someone else take care of you instead of having to act like you have it all together.

Instead of giving ourselves bruises why don't we instead think about the bruises Christ endured for us to live our lives to the fullest. When we do that we will become this beautiful picture of a sweetly broken soul that is wholly surrendered to the Lord Almighty.